New idea!

Alright, so I have an idea. I might be selling my dog, Irish, but I really do not want to. She is like my baby and all, so yeah. Here is my idea. If I can make it back down to at least 145 but a certain date, I'll keep my puppy. If I do not then I must sell her. Then if I do not make it, I'll have sold her and will obviously want to buy a ferret. Maybe two, in case one is lonely. But, I cannot buy one until I make it to 139. I know this will work, because I love Irish to death, so I'll do anything to keep her, and if I don't, well i love ferrets sooo entirely much, they are my favorite,  that I'll probably be able to fast really well, because I'll just keep watching ferret youtube videos er something. Wish me luck! Oh, maybe if I make it to 145 in time, then I make it to 139, even though I'll still have Irish, I can take some money and buy myself a Turtle! My dad did say I can get one, even though we have Irish. So, yeah, after this goal thing, i'll do that. 

Alright, well I have to go, I'm watching Pewdiepie. BEST, MOST FUNNIEST, YOUTUBER EVER!! 

Later....I'll update after my fast is finished. I still have some more hours to go. I'll also be doing some more tips later, and probably some thinspo. I might even put up a picture of my little Irish!

I'm sorry!

Oi, me gosh!! I can;t even expain, i need to sleep i'll update tomorrow! Errrg! I keep spelling stuffff wrong. I haven't slept in loner then 24 hours! If i got for, I think a littel less then 12 hours longer, I'll have gone 48 hours with out sleeping. if only it could be with out food, instead of sleeping. okay, oi , dude, okay good night! 

My favorite blog!

Oi, here is that one girls blog by the way. 

http://transparentbeauty.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2009-01-01T00:00:00-06:00&updated-max=2010-01-01T00:00:00-06:00&max-results=50

People piss me off.

People piss me the fuck off. Like so much. They never learn anything. My friend sits there, analyzing me. Then you know what she said? "I read online about someone having and eating disorder."  Are you fucking kidding me, right now? "Really? That sounds gross. Why would someone do that? Wait why'd you look it up?" Then she starred at me. "Well, I did it because one of my friends might be like that. It's not that gross, if it's someones way of living then its someones way of living." Then she was all like, "If my friend actually admits it I'll be fine with it." No way in hell I'm telling her. "Oi, well I hope she tells you. Maybe you should just ask her about it. Be straight about it." I was only saying that so she'd think I really thought she was talking about someone else and maybe think i wasn't. "Well, okay. Tori, are you anorexic?" Now I literally spit everywhere. For real. Now, i am not the one to lie at all. So I found some loop holes and got around the truth with out lying. "Well, why would you think I'm that? That is just plan dumb. You know me, I love food. Do you really think I could go like a day with out food?" I was playing it cool and just asking questions, making her assume things. Never lying. "Yeah, just I thought you were kind of. You've been eating less, I guess it's just your diet. You are losing weight too, so yeah. But if you ever were to be, you could tell me. I'd actually help you out with it. Like with not eating and stuff." I was so close to just saying. "Fine, I'm Pro-Ana. I have a blog and everything. I starve myself for days then binge like hell. I restrict like crazy one normal days and I envy every fucking skinny girl I see. LIKE YOU! When I eat I hate myself and wish for death!" But it stead, "Naw, I think I'm too weak to do that, but If I ever." Never finishing me sentence, cause if I ever, which i have, I would NEVER tell her! Okay enough of my rant, later.    

PHONE!!!!!!!!

Well, guess what? IM BLOGGING ON MY FUCKING PHONE! WHOAD, HELL YEAH, NIGGA! OKAY, WELL THATS ALL I WANTED TO SAY, DONT KNOW WHY IM STILL WRITING IN CAPS, BUT ALL WELL, BYYYYE!

More tips and some 'more' news.

Okay you guys, I see on the views that people are looking at this, but could you maybe comment so I don't feel like I'm talking to myself so much. It would mean a hell of a lot if I could get my first comment. 

Okay I got that out of the way. I have some more news! I fasted a full 24 hours! Yay me! Oh my gosh I'm like totally happy right now. You have no idea, man. I have been trying to complete at least a whole day, and I finally did it. 24 hours, man. I FEEL AWESOME! Okay, so I knew that if i continued to fast I'd find myself in a binge. So I let myself have some food. Just not enough to make me feel full at all. It was small too, like each thing that I consumed. I have a new idea of what I can do, to help with my fasting. I actually read about it on another blog. They call it checkerboard. It is were you eat one day and then fast the next. I have a bit of a different way on doing it though. I plan on fasting for 24 hours then eating a little bit, like some fruits and veggies. Keep in under like 300. I usually, when I have my normal days with out binging, eat only 100 calories. So I plan on trying to do that, but if I go over I HAVE to keep it 300 or below. I will also switch it up a tad bit. Oi, I forgot, I wont be eating the whole day. Probably just in the morning then fasting the rest for the day until I hit 24 hours.

So that is my new plan.  I'm going to try and find that one girls blog and put it in here so people can go look at it. It is amazing. She is like amazing too. Like started at 200 something pounds and is losing weight really well. She is just amazing! 

Alright, i have bored you enough. I said I was going to give more tips, so here ya'll go.

Tips: 

• Keep busy 24/7. Never stop doing stuff.
• Read a book or try writing. If you can draw do that.
• Just take a bath for a long time. Sit and relax.
• When eating, chew a lot and eat slowly.
• Count how many times you chew before you swallow.
• When you feel like eating something, wait 15 minutes, tell yourself if you are still hunger you have have and apple, salad, anything healthy really.
• When you eat, pace around.
• If you sit while eating just wiggle around.
• When out to eat, talk a bunch.
• Sit in one place all the time with no distractions, something kind of boring. There for you wont look forward to eating, you might even put it off.
• After you eat, lay on your side for about an hour or how ever long, if helps in go through your system fast, not being able to take as much fat out. After this go exercise. 
• If you are trying to fast, tell your self, if I eat I must work out before and after, each 1 hour or 2, how ever long you prefer. 
• Do something that you love in place of eating.
• Find something you enjoy way more then eating, lie the the tip above, and think, "If I eat, I wont be able to do this for __" Then just how ever long you wont be able to do it for.
• Set small goals, like first is 120 then 115, 110. Sometimes you may even skip some goals, instead of only losing like 3 pounds you may lose 6 or 7. It happens.
• Reward yourself. NOT WITH FOOD! Maybe do something after a certain goal. Like, just anything. Buying some new cloths. Getting something pierced. A tattoo. Maybe even and animal. I got myself a dog, she is a Mastive named Irish. I love her to death too!
• Keep something in sight that reminds you of your goal or of fasting or of Ana, Not something obvious, only something that you would know about. Maybe something red or a certain saying. ANYTHING! I have a Red rubber band I keep on the fridge door so I see it when I want to eat. Red for Ana, and the fact that I wear rubber bands to help me not want to eat, by snapping it. I always think of fasting when I look at it. Try it, it may help.

Okay, all I can think of. I will try to find some real girl thinspiration. Which is the best! 

Okay, if you have any tips on how to keep me form going overboard when I eat a tad then fast again, cause I;m doing the checkerboard diet, it would amazing if you could tell me. 

Oi, also, I'm going to post a picture when I get to a certain goal weight, I already have one picked out. Let's see if i can get there. I KNOW I CAN!!!

Fasting tips and GREAT NEWS!!

Oi, guess what??? It is only 2:56 A.M. and I am already feeling those hunger pains. I LOVE IT! I love feeling hunger. I plan on not drinking any water, to kinda kick start by fasting. It really does help. I'm going to give you all some fasting tips and tricks.

Well, here ya go.

Fasting Tips:

• Never go into the kitchen, it can throw you off by just looking at the food. So smelling it is way worse. 
• Try to get in a lot of sleep. Go to be early and try to wake up a little later in the day. I'd say like 11 or 12. Maybe even sleep in to skip a few hours.
• Sleeping in. Sleeping in is what got me through my fasts. I would sleep and wake up a pound or two lighter. What a great satisfaction, yeah?
• Keeping water with you at ALL times. Never go anywhere with out it.
• Do not go out to events. Unless it is a food-less event. Other wise you might crack under the pressure of everyone else eating an the smell of it too.
• Don't take money with you when you go out. You might be tempted to stop at some near by store or gas station and buy something.
• Plan it around free times. Never have something big going on while fasting. It could screw up all your hard work.
• If you must go out, bring gum or something less then 50 calories to eat if you feel yourself caving in.
• If having friends over is triggering to eat, then don't have them over. Or at least only ever once in a while. Maybe hang out at a place where no food is involved, like a park. Playing may be childish, but hey, your burning calories so fuck it!
• They exercising is not really intended while fasting, but if you want to just to help lose weight fast, I'd say just walking for a short period of time before bed. It actually relaxes you and could help you fall asleep better.
• Get lots of rest! You will feel weak, dizzy, faint and getting your rest is HIGHLY recommended!

That is about it at the moment. But i'll probably do some more later.

~Lots of Love, Tori~